Even in the darkness there is light. So I have found the past couple of weeks.
I got a decent raise at work which was unexpected yet deserved. I met a nice girl that when people say marriage and familly about I don't cringe. She actually goes to mass with me.
I got an e-mail from a cousin that I haven't talked to since probably may.
But there too, there is still some bad. I fell through racking at work and might of torn my MCL and miniscus. I'll find out about that later this week.
I've been listening to alot of country lately. I even went and saw Brad Paisley, Sugarland and Sarah Evans. Hell I'm even going to Keith Urban in a couple of weeks.
Then again I am seeing Seven Dust and Mudvayne this Saturday. I haven't gone soft, just a little more open.
I've slowed down my drinking, I'm pretty sure the new lady has alot to do with that. I even walked away from a fight on Saturday night. I'm trying to make an honest change for once.
I'm trying to put behind me the days of three and out relationships. Sure while three months seems to be the perfect time to end a relationship for me, it seems to of caused some trouble for the other half of the equation. No more drunk dialing and having sex with exes, or even exes and thier friends.
I'm going to do, and have been doing what absolutely terrifies me. I'm being exclusive, no more roomates covering for me. No more BS.
It's time for me to quit being a chicken shit. No fear of death, but commitment on the other hand, that's scary shit.
And I'm doing it now.
Smiley